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About Janine

Janine Adamo is an intuitive acrylic painter. She begins her work without any preconceived ideas of what the finished work is going to look like. She likes the idea of each painting being a journey, ending at a beautiful destination. Her paintings are made with lots of color and textures. Each new painting reveals its own tendencies and surprises as it comes to life.

Welcome to my Studio

This week I feel like I made a big step towards my dream of sharing my love of art. I purchased a camcorder to record me painting, so I can share my process in my e-course. My goal is to time lapse me painting a piece from start to finish. How exciting! As you might know my ex husband is in the motion picture industry so video taping is right up his ally. Something I have no experience with. Something he always took care of. So here I am trying to figure out what camera would be good for me, what supplies I need and how do I actually do this! HA! I have not figure it all out yet but I did get a camcorder, batteries, memory card and a tripod. I am now trying to see if I have enough room behind me to actually have a tripod! I may need to make a shelf to put the camera on. We shall see. I need to do test shots to see what I have to work with space wise.

I am sitting here looking at what I have set up, looking at my studio, looking at where I was and were I am heading. Getting this camcorder was a big step for me. It was like I was telling the universe, here I am, I am doing this, no looking back now! And what do I feel? Excitement!  Every step of this journey so far has been filled with such excitement and fear. One minute I am so excited for what is to be and then the next I am so scared, what am I doing? What am I getting myself into? I don’t know what I am doing, I don’t know how to do this. Even with those thoughts I still have big plans for the future. Workshops, live classes, traveling the possibilities are endless really. So much hope. Hope… funny, that was the word I picked in January for this year.

So I leave you with photos of my studio, of my world, a world I live in everyday and one that I love. Where as my girls like to say… Where Magic Happens… I agree.

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Where the magic happens.

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The most Amazing Bean Bag!!! I have had many naps here. 🙂

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My Desk.

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Fear

So here I am, working on my e-course, making great progress. I decided on a name; Painting from the Soul, I’m settling on a launch date, not ready to share that yet. And I have a backbone figured out, ready to fill in the blanks. I’m ready to continue on to the next step of the process and what do I do… I stop. I find myself getting into old habits of staying busy with stuff that really does need to get done but I’m not carving out time to work on my course. This morning I asked myself, Why? Why am I doing this? And you know what I came up with… Fear of course.

What is this fear? I decided to look it up to get a better understanding.

Fear: An emotion experienced in anticipation of some specific pain or danger. An anxious feeling. Be afraid or feel anxious about a possible or probable situation or event. Be afraid or scared of; be frightened of. Be uneasy or apprehensive about.

Okay, I am not in any pain or danger, the situation is not dangerous, I am not frightened, but yes I am a bit anxious and scared. But why? This fear is not helping me in any way. I am getting in my own way really. All I need to do is dive in and once I am in, things will flow and all will be alright. What am I afraid of? What is making me feel anxious? The fear of not being able to pull it off, of failure, of letting people down or letting myself down, of having the course flop and no one liking it, not being able to get across what I am striving to, oh the list goes on and on. So what if I fail, what if it flops, what if all that happens? What would be the worst thing that would happen to me? That I learn something? I look foolish? I disappoint others (who are these people that I am disappointing?), I disappoint myself…but how can I disappoint myself if I do my best and put all that I am into it? And then there is this question… What if I don’t fail? What happens then? I will have grown, I will feel a sense of confidence, accomplishment, a feeling of being proud, happy, you get the picture. Well why can’t you feel all of those things if you fail? I should be proud that I have done it. I did what I set my heart out to do and I will have grown from it. Learned many things like how to do it and what to do and not to do. I should feel accomplished that I pulled it off, that I did it. Not even trying is worse. In a way you fail by not trying. You let yourself down and all the others that would of benefited from the course. So when you think about it, not doing it is the failure. Doing it, no matter what the outcome, is the success. I like that. I like how that feels. I will keep you updated and let you know how it goes, what the next part of this journey looks like. But for now I leave you with this question, what is your fear preventing you from doing? What is the worst that can happen. I challenge you to do it anyway, like I shall do, and let me know how it goes. I would love to hear from you. xoxo

 

I shall leave you with some progress shots of the 2 pieces I started working on a couple of weeks back. These are the second layers.

 

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Exciting Times

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Its the end of the school year for my girls, 2 more weeks left! They are bouncing off the walls with excitement and counting down the hours. We are engulfed in end of year projects, class trips, field days and parties. How exciting this time of year is for a child. There are certain times of the year that make you sit back and think, wow, where did the time go. New Years being one of them but the last day of school is another one. Its the ending of many things and then you get the lull of summer and then comes August (the south starts school early) which brings a bunch of new beginnings.

It makes me sit back and look at what I have been up to, what is ending for me and what is on my horizon. What has ended for me was this awful darkness that was engulfing me at the new year. I have said goodbye to what was and hello to what is. I am so happy to say that life is so much brighter today than it was 4-5 months ago.

So the fun stuff, what am I saying hello to, what is on my horizon, what have I been thinking on and working on. I recently put together a document that lists my 5 techniques that helps me be inspired.  I put it all together for you and you can get it for Free by subscribing to my blog. How cool is that! I really enjoyed putting it together and love the idea of being able to share it and help you in any situation of getting unstuck.

Then with the courses I have been taking this year I am so happy to say that I am in the beginning stages of putting together my own e-course!! Squeeeeeee!!! I am so excited about it and I am currently working out the details, nuts and bolts and all that jazz. I have been asked many times, especially when I am doing an art fair, if I teach. I would immediately say no, not me, I’m not a teacher but something inside of me, very quietly, would say, Yes you are. That voice has been getting louder and louder and I had to finally say, OK to that voice and jump in, see what happens and go with it. I am at the very beginning stages, I have so much I want to teach and I need to narrow it down and get to the heart of my first class. My goal is to expand it and do live courses too but I’m getting ahead of myself. LOL, My introverted self thought an e-course would be a good way to start.

I shall end this post with this question, what are you leaving behind and starting. I think its great to think on this more than once a year. Please share with me, I would love to hear from you!! Love to you all. xoxox

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Morning Pages Surprise

Every morning I do my morning pages, I get up before my kids and journal. You can learn more about Morning Pages in the book The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron. Today I was surprised at what came out…

“As I open this journal today and feel the blank page before me, it reminds me of the day that is ahead of my. A blank slate, a new beginning, the possibilities ahead. Today I want to live my life with a child’s eye, with curiosity, exploration and love to fill the world with. Today I shall kick fear, acknowledge it, not give it the power it needs to thrive. I will paint, I will explore, I will look at life with a child’s enthusiasm for each new experience to come my way. I shall paint, to break that fast, to break that dry spell, to look at the break with love and kindness and know I needed it to heal. To give that silent time, compassion and love. Knowing we all have lessons to learn and one that I am to learn is compassion for myself, compassion for the time I needed to heal and not create but to explore other avenues in my life. This blank page gives me hope and excites me like a blank canvas. What colors shall I use today, what area in my life will I exercise letting go? How will I share this overwhelming feeling of love that I am feeling right now, who will I inspire, help or just be there for? Yes, Today is another day with schedules to be followed and responsibilities to adhere to but isn’t that part of life, to go through your day looking for those opportunities and moments to share, grow, experience no matter how mundane it is, no matter how many times you have done it before. Like these morning pages. Today I see such hope, potential with filling up these pages with insight and love.

So as I start my day with such love and excitement I pray that you all do the same. That you all can get past the mundane and see the hope and possibilities that lay before you. This is my wish for you. Explore each opportunity with open eyes of curiosity and love. Try to find something new about it, open your heart and minds and soak in the love of the world. The world does have a lot of love to give. Its way too easy to always look at all of the negativity, to have it fill us with unhappiness and loss. Tomorrow when you wake up try to set intentions to be able to see the love and positivity that is presented to us each and every day. I pray that you all can feel the love. Today I do.”

When I finished writing I thought… where did THAT come from??? And knew I had to share it. And today I did just that, I had a great day and Yes, I finally painted! It was so fun and exciting and expressive. I worked on 3 – 30” x 30” canvas’s. The 1st one I started from the blankness of opportunity, the 2nd one I painted over a piece I had worked on last year that was going nowhere and needed a fresh start and the 3rd I worked on a piece that I would like to finish that I started a long while ago. I will post them below

So here is to the next week of opportunity. May it be filled with love and kindness. xoxo

 

Boy did I miss this! What my drafting table looks like when I finish a painting session. Happy Place!

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Canvas 1 – Layer 1 (of many), warm colors

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Canvas 2, reactivating the canvas

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Canvas 3 –  I just had to finish this one, more to come…

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Resistance

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Last week was Spring Break here and everything got put on hold. The girls and I had a blast. We had fun hiking in North Ga, went to the movies (saw Home… girls liked it, me eh) and explored Stone Mountain. The break was nice, I got to finished a book called “The War of Art” by Steven Pressfield. The whole premises of the book is about resistance, how clever we are about putting off what we love/want to do most, like paint or write or journal or anything else that will help you grow and be who you want to be. “Any act that rejects immediate gratification in favor of long-term growth, health or integrity.”

It made me think about myself and what does resistance look like for me. At first I didn’t think I had much resistance, I am a driven person and I get stuff done. But when I really thought about what I was getting done and what I wanted to get done were 2 totally different things. I started realizing that yes, I did have resistance and wow, its very clever. My resistance looks like this… I want to paint today, get the creative juices flowing but I have all of these things on my list that I “have” to do, I’ll do them first and then I’ll paint. I work on my list and before you know it the day is over and did I paint, well no, but I got all of these things done. So instead of feeling down that I didn’t paint I felt good that I got all of this stuff done. Was painting on my list? Yes, but not the priority it should be, not part of my daily ritual. So I trick myself into thinking, well I got all of these things done, I was productive so its ok that I didn’t paint. Day after day goes by, new things are put on my list that I “have” to do, excuses arise, well I only have 30 min or 1 hour and its not long enough so I’ll do some things on my to do list. And before you know it all that is left on my list are the things I have been resisting for some odd reason. Why is that? Chris Zydel mentioned that “You dodge or resist a practice not because it doesn’t work but because it works all too well. Doing a practice of any sort, diligently and with devotion WILL change your life. And of course the prospect of that scares the bejesus out of us.” This intrigues me. I know it exists, I am living it right now. Have I painted yet this week? Well no… And I have this yearning, this need to finally get my hands dirty. I have recently wrote to a group of artist that “I want to break my silence, my sabbatical, my rest, my slumber, my hibernation and get some paint on the canvas. “ But have I? Well no, Why?? This whole idea of resistance, where does it come from? Fear. Oh here’s that word again, fear, man that is the route to so many things. What am I afraid of? I’ll tell you, I am afraid that I can no longer paint, that I have used up all of my talent and creativity and everything I do from now on will be shit. Afraid of failure, of letting myself down, of being vulnerable. How crazy is all that? Is it even possible to use up all of your talent or creativity? I really don’t think so but fear does.

So what do I do about it? I acknowledge it, I see it for what its worth and work through it. I show up and do the work anyway. Once I start that fear will disappear and my enjoyment will take over. I know this. OHY! I sound crazy hu. So what I am going to do is this. I am going to tell you all that this week, before my next blog post next week I am going to paint! I am going to show up and get my hands dirty and paint.

So I leave you with this question, what does resistance look like for you?

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Where is the art?

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So where is the art in all of this? I keep on asking myself this question, I have not painted since November of 2014. Now that I sit and ponder on this question once again I now believe all of this self discovery has been part of my art. Yes, I would paint what is going on in my life, paint to get my emotions and feelings out of me and onto the canvas. To present my soul for all of you to see. But where has it been? Where did my creative outlet go? Its like I have been hibernating and now that spring is here I am getting ready to start blooming again and express myself. Not all has been lost, even though I have not been painting I have not stifled my creativity. I have been busy, you see, I have been working on my creative side in a different way. I have been exploring how to make my paintings, my love for art, my love to express myself and discovering, my love to share/teach, how to share it with the world, how to have it sustain myself and my girls in this next phase in my life. I am very excited about it and will be taking you along on my journey. I am currently in an amazing Creative Biz course led by Mati Rose. I have been learning so much on who I am as an artist, what I want to explore and share. I am soon going to be starting another adventure and take Jennifer Louden’s Teach Now course. Yes I am going to teach! Teach about the creative process, painting and a lot more. The idea of teaching has been whispering to me for years now and I keep on getting stuck on the how, I never taught before and then this course fell into my lap when I was deciding this is really something I want to do and do it now. What about the painting you ask, well my dry spell will finally be broken, I am also going to further my knowledge on intuitive painting and take Chris Zydel’s course Painting with Fire! Yes! I believe I needed this down time to really think about what I want to do and how do I want to do it. It’s funny how things start falling into place when you have a clear idea on what you want to do, the “how to” starts to present itself and all you have to do is be aware and open to the possibilities.  Am I scared? Well Yea! I am entering a totally new phase in my life, a phase of even more self discovery, self awareness and being a student along with being a teacher. But with that fear I am so excited, excited for the possibilities! I have no idea what the future has planned for me but for the first time in a long time I am very excited about it. So take my hand and follow me on this amazing journey I have just embarked on.

New Beginnings

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This past Friday was the Spring Equinox, Pieces/Aries New Moon, Super Moon and a Total Solar Eclipse. Wow! So in celebration I attended a Mayan Fire Ceremony led by Sylina Buehne, “Two Bears” at the Conscious Living Center. Sylina is a Native American shaman and medicine woman.Fire Pit I was beside myself with excitement, I have never been to a fire ceremony before and didn’t know what to expect. The ceremony took place in Canton GA, a rural area. It was refreshing to get away from all the lights and commotion and enter a more relaxed environment. Where the bright lights of businesses are not present, the roads are dark at night and they twist and bend in ways that make you slow down. The further I drove the more I was thinking, I’m not in Kansas anymore. I arrived and took in the scenery, the property was vast, we took a little journey down to the fire pit, which was beside a pond next to a wooded area. It was such a peaceful location. The land we were on was also home to 3 beautiful horses that ended up visiting us during the evening. Now, I won’t be going into great detail about the particulars of the ceremony, instead I will be talking about what I gained, how it prepared me for the next phase of my life.There were about 30 of us, the beauty of it was that we were there as a group, a community and at the same time we were each a lone warrior asking for help and guidance for ourselves and others. Sylina led us through the Mayan Calendar, the 20 Mayan “naguales” or spirit guides that represent and help with certain elements or aspects of life, the Tzolk’in. To learn more about it click here. We were guided, taught about each naguale. We reflected on our own lives, thinking about what we needed guidance with and were we needed to heal. We also reflected on what we wanted to manifest this spring, what seeds we were planting and what we were going to nurture in our lives. It was so magical. The ceremony ended in 3 short hours. As we walked back up to our cars I realized I never once thought about my phone, e-mail, errands, what i had to do or what was expected of me. I was totally and completely in the moment for 3 solid hours. I can’t remember the last time that has ever happened. I get in my car and left with such peace in my heart, contentment, I was drunk with love, hope and happiness. The sky was dark and the stars were were bright. As I am turning and twisting through Canton finding my way back to my life I felt a tinge of sadness. I was entering a more populated area, the stores were plenty, the lights were bright and the cars many. The sky was no longer dark and the stars weren’t as bright because of the many lights. But even so, I still had that hope of new beginnings in my heart. As I drove home I had to drive though the area I had lived in for about 12 years of my life. The place I loved, where my family grew, my kids entered the world and where they grew. I have missed that area dearly since my move, since the divorce but tonight it was different. As I drove thFire Pitough I felt a new contentment, I was no longer angry or sad that I had to move. I felt reborn, that I had shed some layers that evening. I drove through with a sense of peace not longing. I was going to be OK, I have entered the next phase of my journey. As I was driving through I was saying goodbye to the past, goodbye to the hurt and pain and hello to possibility and hope. I couldn’t help but notice the Bradford Pear trees, how they were all in full bloom, they stuck out. They were beautiful, all in white while the other trees in contrast were still barren. It was like they represented hope of what was to come. Shouting to the world that Spring is here, new life, new beginning and hope for what is to come. The evening was exactly what I needed, to be able to look back at my life, shed some tears, ask for guidance and to be able to look forward with such excitement and hope.

Everything happens for a reason…

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Everything happens for a reason… is something I believe. I’m sure you have heard of that saying, but have you really thought about it? I haven’t until today, If you truly believe that then do you really have anything bad happen to you? If you believe everything happens for a reason, I would think that “reason” is a good thing, right? It’s a lesson for us to learn, its something to put us on a new path, its to help us learn how to deal with grief, or loneliness or being afraid or showing us how strong we are, how brave we are or a million other amazing things.

I had to remind myself of that saying recently, the girls and I were put in a sticky situation, one that put fear into me, worry, sleepless nights, what ifs and all that good stuff. That got me nowhere. I shared my situation with friends and it helped but it still stayed with me, the icky feeling, the knot in my stomach. I had to dig deep down and finally I ask myself these 3 questions; What can I learn from this? What is my opportunity? What is my lesson? I answered them and you know what, it gave me hope, it was something for me to hold on to, to help me get though. It turned the negative to a positive.

So how you respond to a situation is key to how happy you live your life. Yes, I am sure you have heard it all before, inspiring quotes on Facebook talking about just that. Well I don’t have a quote to share with you but I do have my experience.

So I went back to past events in my life that were negative to me like my divorce, depression, artist block and loneliness to name a few. I then came up with my lesson, my opportunity, what I learned about myself and others and wow, did that open up my eyes. It amazes me how freer I feel, how happier I feel and all because I looked at things differently. Usually it’s my friends giving me a new way of looking at something, I like to surround myself with people who look at things differently than I do. They give me such great perspective. But this time I was me.

So back to that sticky situation, more people got involved and they were angry, I was then stuck with this thought… I asked a friend “How do you speak your Truth, be true to yourself but not hurt someone in the process.” This sticky situation was still bothering me in a different way now. Now I knew where I stood, what I wanted accomplished, I just don’t want to hurt them, no matter what they have done to me, I don’t see a need to return that. I want to be able to speak my Truth with the upmost integrity, without intention of hurting feelings. The response to my question was… As long as you speak your Truth with loving kindness all will be OK, you can’t take responsibility for the way someone responds to your truth. Relationships are more about teaching us about ourselves. Everyone in your life is a teacher and you are a teacher to others… How cool is that? Yes I have so much to learn about speaking my Truth, being true to myself and learning my lesson/opportunity. I can only hope I get through this learning experience with strength, love and kindness.

So the next time you find yourself in a bad situation, event or anything that feels negative ask yourself these 3 questions; What can you learn from this? What is your opportunity? What is your lesson? And then respond with loving kindness.

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Saying YES

When you say Yes, the universe helps you.

 

It has been a long and trying week since my last post. I had to get strong and stand up for what was right for me and my girls. I then had to deal with my own distraught feelings on how I dealt with the situation and hoped I did it with integrity. I had to surrender to my fears and share them with liked minded women. I embarked on a new adventure with a Creative Biz course that I am so excited about and pouring my heart and soul into. I was also extremely blessed by one of those liked minded women to see that I needed help and was able to help me by noticing that we may be a good fit and I am now working with her as a graphic designer.

I am not here to write about the details of what has happened this past week, or to point fingers at who was wrong and how I was wronged. Instead I want to write about last night. Write about what I decided to do about it and what I said Yes to.

Last night I journeyed for a friend, it was amazing and I had not done it in so long that it felt like a homecoming. It made me realize how I need to pay more attention to my spiritual side and journey/meditate more, like every day or night really. After I journeyed and wrote down what I needed to for my friend I sat in silence, in meditation. It felt so good. I then started feeling empowered, I started thinking about what do I want to say Yes to. And this is what happened. I said Yes to taking responsibility of my life. Taking responsibility of your life doesn’t mean admitting fault or labeling someone else’s faults towards you. You are where you are because of circumstances that may or may not have been in your control. Even if they were out of your control you still have the opportunity to take responsibility of it and figure out how are you now going to continue with your life. So at that moment of taking responsibility I said Yes to no longer feeling like the victim, I am who I am because of the things that I have been through and I am ok with it. I am saying Yes to growth, growth to my graphic design career, growth in my painting career, to my life as a single mom. To say I am a single mom without feeling that sadness because even though I didn’t want it, I was made a single mom. Saying Yes to independance but also to accepting when I need support/help. That needing support/help is not a bad thing. Saying Yes to moving forward in this path with eyes wide open. To staying true to myself, to speaking my truth, to learning and growing and then teaching what I have learned so I can empower other women. Empower other single moms to be OK with their life and taking responsibility. Saying Yes to showing my girls how to be an empowered woman, single mom or not, it doesn’t matter. Saying Yes to taking control when I can and surrendering when I can’t. Saying Yes to surrender.

Wow, that was a lot of saying Yes and it felt a bit overwhelming, like I may have just took a bigger bite than I can handle. Then I thought saying Yes is also about chances, putting myself out there and accepting what happens. So then I thought about saying Yes to my artist block, learning from it, embracing it instead of thinking of it as a bad thing, a negative and think on what I need to learn from it. What opportunities has it give me.

After I was done I felt so empowered, so free and at peace. So right and true to myself. Saying Yes to me, to self love, to taking care of myself. What an amazing thing to say. What an amazing path I am on now.

So my question to you today is, what are you saying Yes to?

 

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What is your Truth?

What are you really about, what is your Truth? I was asked this question by an amazing person, Carolan Deacon. What is my Truth, what am I all about? No one had ever asked me that before. I never really had to think about it. What am I all about? I was caught off guard, I didn’t have an answer, I felt many things, and here is where I get stuck, I felt many things but had a hard time putting it all into words; lost, stuck, fear…no, none of them singularly but all of them together. Why don’t I know? Seems simple enough, how can I not know.

I then start to write, journal, put down random thoughts and try to make sense of it. I was trying to compare that question to other kinds of questions to help me figure this out, wondering if it’s what your passionate about, is it like your personal mission statement or your elevator speech about yourself. Well yes I was told. Okay, I can relate to that. But I still haven’t answered the question.

What is my mission statement? What am I here to do? I wrote down some words; love, create, share, inspire, learn, explore. That was a good start but I needed more, to dig deeper.

What am I passionate about, well Art/Creativity of course. What else? Nature, feeling connected to the earth and to people, spirituality. Okay now we are getting somewhere. What else? Health, as a whole… exercise/walking, eating right and mentally becoming myself again. I see it happening more and more each day. Feeling like myself again, feeling that happiness and spark. Is that a passion of mine? Well I am fighting for it every day, that happiness, so I believe so. Anything else? Yes, my family and friends. I was trying to come up with a word that described that, family and friends, but have not yet found it. Maybe loved ones? Yes I like that. I’m talking about the love and support you exchange, the companionship, intimacy, conversations, laughing, playing, talking, staying up late watching a dumb Keanu Reeves movie and poking fun at it the whole time. Those moments are priceless.

So what I realized is that I ended up with 4 pillars, 4 parts of me that when put together made me whole. So what that looks like in no particular order is this:

Creativity • Spirituality • Health • Loved Ones

I sat and looked at those words, they felt right, they felt perfect, they felt like Me. I then realized that for me to be happy to feel and speak my Truth I needed to have all 4, all 4 fulfilling my life at the same time. I can’t just be or concentrate on only 1 or 2 or 3 for that matter, I needed to be engaged with all 4 to be me. That’s my Truth.

So I leave you with this question. What is your Truth?

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